It’s Friday, and just like that, my first week of radiation is complete!
Five sessions down – 28 more to go.
I’ve been trying to keep my spirit light and my mindset steady. Each day, I get dressed in something comfortable but put-together – it helps me feel more like myself. I bring an apple as a little post-treatment reward, and I listen to a podcast or some music on the way there and back. These small things help keep me grounded. Sometimes I use Full Self-Driving, and other times I drive myself. The drive can actually be kind of pleasant, and I try to stay in a good mood so I can enjoy the little things – listening to music, chatting with the nurses, remembering their names. Of course, none of this is fun, but I’m doing my best to find small moments of light within it.
Staying in a good mood helps me notice those tiny bright spots – a kind hello, a peaceful drive, a familiar face. These little points of comfort don’t change what I’m going through, but they help me feel more grounded, more calm, and a little more like myself.
Right now, I have zero side effects. I’m religious about my skincare routine – lotion and Aquaphor, every single day. I know there’s still a long road ahead, but I’m hopeful that my efforts will help keep the side effects at bay.
Yesterday, I had physical therapy to help manage any potential swelling or edema. I also worked on vestibular therapy for vertigo. Every day when I get up off the treatment table, I feel a wave of dizziness – so I’m trying to get that under control, too.
I’m also working on just being me again – not stuck in fear, not spiraling, not depressed. Yes, it’s happening. The thing that scared me most is actually happening. But I’m doing it. And I’m still here. I’m strong. I’m brave. And I’m not giving up.




